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I thougt that everything harmonized in any way very well. Obviously the stork fetches the little children high above in heaven from the dear God who had made them, and then the stork takes the children to their parents on the earth. Storkx can fly at all. I believed in everything the grown up people had telled me, I believed that everything is true in reality. Why should my parents, other elder relativs, kindergartner, teacher or our clergyman at all telling me lys? The grown up people knew everything better than we unskilled children. ...but at the one side the matters were quite very well. If am a Christ, I can life forewer, I can join the paradise and life their forewer in carelessness and welfare. But at the other side I had taken respect not to join the hell. The possibility to get the eternal damnation caused sorrows. But if I stay religious all over my life, I mustnot fear the hell. But, who knows... |
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But indeed, our neighbor who used to drown his little new born cats in the water-butt wasn´t being punished and was allowed to live longer. I guessed what kind of crime my sister should have been committed in order to die so early. "Everybody is guilty, already because of the original sin!" Very well, if I have done some mistakes or faults, I would be willing to take responsibility for my behaiviour. But why should ! and millions of other people be punished, only of cause somebody had ignored God´s orders milleniums ago? |
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I grew up and I interested me for my environment. We were attended with miracles everywhere at all. I could hear the voice of a man from our radio, although there was no man in the radio. Our car drove without being pulled by horses. During the winter snow fell and during the summer the weather was warm. Sometimes the moon was shining and sometimes not. Why? Questions about questions, and I started to look for answers. ...and the grown up people were very engaged to answer my questions as good as possible. There were little explosions in the engine of our car pushing the pistons, the power is given by the transmission and a cardan shaft to the axe, and the car is running. High tide and low tide are caused by the gravitation of the moon. All the question I ´d asked were be answered on a rational way. |
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I was very unsettled. Why do I get no answers to my questions? Did somebody want to keep something secret? Why??? I grew up and my parents thought that the time had being coming to informe me about sexual matters. The story about the stork is not right at all, in reality little babys are born in another way. And now I was lightened, because it seemed to be clear that the stories about God and Jesus also were not true at all. That´s only a children´s belief till they reach the age of ten years. That should be all. "Oh no! God and everything elsewhere of religion we ´d teached you are existing in reality! You have to believe in it as long as you are living," so the grown ups said.. But now I wanted to answer this questions in any way. Why do I am catholic insted of evangelic? "Because your father is a catholic. Your father is a catholic, because his father was a catholic too and so on. There was a law in the Middle Age that everybody has to accept the religion of his sovereign. If somebody didn´t want to accept, he was allowed to emigrate. All members of the Kossmann family are catholic since that time at all and also you have to baptiste and educate your later children in the catholic way!" That should be the only reason?! But what´s the matter with the evagelic student of theology? Can´t he come into the heaven after his dead? "Surely, he will come into the heaven too!" But what´s the reason that he is evangelic and not catholic? "That´s the same why I´d told you. He is evangelica, because his father was evangelic. The religion is passed on from generation to generation like a hereditary disease you cannot stand. The later living in the heaven was perhaps like a tour in a railroad waggon. The first class is reserved for the catholics and the second class for the evangelics. But at that early 1960ths the first turkish people came to Germany, and they had got a quite different religion at all. I ´d watched on tv who buddistic monks burnt themselves in order to protest against something. Each church and each religion published something different matters, but who of them was right at al???
Now I intendent so solve this problem, because I wanted to become sure in religious matters. After this time I ´d been busy in religion. |
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